closing a chapter



Goodbye 20's.



While seeing everyone posting their best moments, and achievements from 2022. I felt like I have zero nice things to show or talk about. Let's just say, it's been the most emotionally and spiritually challenging phase of my 30 years of life.


But throughout this roller coaster ride of a year, I want to be able to look back at one day and be grateful for this year, no matter how many roadblocks came my way. I don't want to stay bitter and allow these challenges to take away my power and the love that lies within me.


I kept seeing everyone write down all the good things that happened in their life in 2022, and I was so resistant to trying to find anything good that happened to me this year. So I decided I'm going to take time out of my day today to reminisce on this painful year no matter the emotions that will resurface, allow myself to dig deep, and see all the good that came to me.



Here are some things I discovered this year:



1.

I always knew I had this unshakable strength inside of me, but this year, I was able to put it in practice! What I learned is that I'm much stronger than I thought I was.



2.

gave myself permission to breakdown and fall apart countless times. I gained strength in the shattering process of my soul, and I gained strength in the rebuilding of it.



3.

I learned that people genuinely do care. I had so many people who reached out to me wanting to help mend my heart in the many ways they knew how. I didn't have to go through my struggles alone. No matter how alone I felt, I was never alone.



4.

I learned that no matter how much I'm struggling, I can snap out of my pain momentarily and be there for someone else. In the darkest moments of my life, I still made space for others in my heart.



5.

I didn't want to believe certain things about friends and family, because I always chose to see the good in them. But I realized that some people are not good for me. Not because they're bad people, but simply because they don't make room for my light to shine. It's not because they want to be mean, but simply because they don't know how to see the light within themselves, so they become threatened by yours.



6.

Growing up, I've been taught that when you love someone, you give your all to them. But my life this year showed me that that's not love. Loving someone is NOT giving your all, instead it is being able to BE all of who you are. I am emotionally and physically tired of leaving pieces of myself in other people's validation box. I'm learning to value myself more than I ever have, and that's a gift I'm truly grateful for this year.



7.

I learned that the shitty things that happened to me are actually things my soul asked for. So I can't stay mad at what the universe delivered for what I put out as an order in the first place.



8.

I'm grateful to have made many new friends this year, some who will stay in my life for years to come. I'm grateful for my courage to leave everything behind and start a whole new life in a whole new place. I'm grateful for all the new entering my life, and I'm grateful for all the things that left.



9.

I'm grateful that throughout the shittiest year of my life, I rose above and became more of who I am, and for that, this year has been a blessed.





Basel, Switzerland



Life of Beti